The Diaries

I am thinking I should split my diary like content from bloggish things by tagging all my personal ramblings with “The Diaries” – though isn’t everything on here, technically, my personal ramblings?

Anyways, weird week. I decided to say goodbye to something I perhaps, in retrospect, should have said goodbye to a long time ago because I was clearly not appreciated. To me it felt like I have done everything I possibly could to set it up for success but apparently I am a disappointment because I am leaving after having dedicated 3 years of my life to it as a volunteer. (I hope you can hear my eyes rolling to the back of my head) Ah well you can’t please everyone now, can you?

I wonder if years from now I’ll look back at this and laugh because it won’t be significant in my life at that point. It does happen to me a lot… When I read my old diaries, a lot of the stuff doesn’t even make sense to me anymore.
Of course that could be due to the fact that I chose to write with a fountain pen in my old diaries and the ink has simply vanished in many places.

Also I used a lot of aliases for people in my old diaries – just look at me referring to my journals as old diaries, as if I am an author or something.

Anyways, as I was saying, I used a lot of aliases and frankly I don’t remember half the people who were mentioned in those entries. Will I forget more as I age? I am not even that old, I am only 29!

Maybe I should choose an alias for myself for now so it can help me forget that I am upset. And then when I forget the alias, I will also forget the fact that I was / am upset at this point in my life.

Side note: Writing always helps me focus and calm down. So I am hoping to get some done over the weekend so I can just relax and be back to my normal self.

Currently Reading: Virginia Woolf in Manhattan by Maggie Gee

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The story revolves around a 21st century author who wills Virginia Woolf back to life. Actually, Woolf just materializes out of thin air in New York Public Library one day and she is a hoot and a half!
Not only does Virginia has to get used to modern life, she has to figure out how to earn money and get a room of one’s own.

I am halfway through the book but I have no idea what the ending will entail and I am trying not to let curiousity get the best of me – so I can enjoy the ride.

What are you currently reading?

100 Happy Days; Finding Happiness : Day 1

Happiness to me is a warm cup of tea in the morning…

A smile on the faces of those I love… The rain on my face on a hot summer day…

A good book……….

It’s ironic that while we get busier with this funny little thing called life, sometimes, just sometimes, we forget to live it. We forget that in order to really live we have to savor every moment and be thankful for each day.

My awesome sauce friend (I was going to say dear but awesome sauce sounds far more awesome!) Casey is currently taking part in the 100 happy days challenge on his site, which you should totally check out because you will get to see his adorable little baby Isaiah amongst other awesome things!

So… he is taking part in this challenge, which I highly recommend that you check out, and I thought to myself, hey! this sounds great! I should do it too! because ever so often I feel low and I don’t want to!

In high school before blogs were a thing, I used to keep a journal which I called and still refer to as my ‘happy book’.

It has little notes from people that I love and care about. Needless to say it made me and still makes me extremely happy whenever I read it. The little book also goes wherever I go!

It was given to me by my sister when I was 18 as a New Years’ present but it ended up becoming much more than that. Thank you sisbug! I love you so much!

Diary

P.S: This post was going to be about meeting a friend but this seems more appropriate as a start!

Musings from another time – ‘Being 17, Ughness, Blahness and the likes of it’

I am reading Bridget Jones’s Diary for the umpteenth time and I wanted to share this with you guys. Enjoy.

WAIT!

P.S: This was my first ever blog post… ok now enjoy!

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October 19, 2004

Exams are over… woohoo… gonna drop one subject… can’t stand it anymore… hmmm I don’t know what I want to be… sometimes I think I really wanna be a doctor but at other times I think I am going to be an engineer or join mass communications.

haha to be honest, I don’t know what is going to become of me. I am still in shock that I managed to get an A level pass for my maths! I was ready to fail.

Today Mr. S came up to me and scared me by saying ‘ how much do you think you got for maths?’ I was like, ‘well you should know since you marked it!’ then he said I passed. At that moment I wanted to get up and start dancing but then he asked me how I did for other subjects and my inflated ego was immediately deflated. I told him even though the grades this year were super shitty.

S texted me saying he wants to get to know me better.. hmm then N told me to just reply that how can he get to know me when he didn’t even dare approach me when he saw me in school… hmm I hope it wasn’t too harsh because it’s not very nice to hurt others.

Well J was online today. G too. I asked G if I should wish him, she said go ahead. I did and he didn’t even say thanks. oh sob sob sob. Never mind, it is ok. I feel bad but it is ok. I guess he has his own good reasons but I just want to be friends man! hmmm never mind. Ok this is getting so crappy. gtg

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Horrors! I had to edit the post massively to make it readable and I used to say things like ‘gtg’ a lot! It’s a miracle that I managed to get an A for my A levels English! (show off!)

And I am neither a doctor nor an engineer. I am a writer/techie (or however you spell that!)