Incoherent Thoughts

I did not choose this for myself. Maybe it came to me.

Maybe I went for it.

All I can tell you is that it was not a conscious decision.

I dreamt of a time… I dream of a time when I will meet someone who will want to do things with me… for me… or just be with me just because I am me.

This is nothing to do with relationships.

I don’t know what it is.

There is an inherent sadness to it.

A kind of sadness that depletes your energy level. A kind of sadness that makes you want to disappear and never talk to anyone ever again.

This kind of sadness just needs to go.

I have tried… tried to dissociate myself from the situation… tried to think happier thoughts but in the end it’s the incoherent ones that take over.

Loneliness

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2 thoughts on “Incoherent Thoughts

  1. Dear Ria, if it helps any, please know that I am in that same dream with you, and you are not alone in your sadness. Take care, Love >.<

  2. Ria, I know just how you feel. I’ve felt this before…maybe it is the common lot of all people to experience this sadness at times throughout life. Blessings to you to find companionship and to find joy! ~ Sheila

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