Thoughts on the Subway at 8 in the AM

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This happened…

 

8AM: *boards the subway*

OMG! Is he kidding me right now? If only he moved his fat arse an inch I could be sitting.

Ok CRAP! I am so hungry right now, should have listened to mum this morning and had my breakfast.

I wonder what will happen at work today. What will we do? Merchandising or calling? Hmmmmm

8:15AM:

I need to do something about my life. What am I even doing? What happened to my dream?

YOU are working on your dream. It’s just taking some time. Relax!

OMG! Tonight when I get home, I am so going to start those Japanese lessons again. I can’t even remember most of the words.

*TTC announcements* Great! Not like we already didn’t know that the TTC has to freaking break down everyday.

TODAY LOOKS LIKE IT’S GONNA BE A GREAT DAY LA DE DA!

OH LOOK! A text from him! YAY!

OH NO! It was from someone else. BLAH!

Am I there yet? Why is this subway taking forever? MOVE DAMN IT!

Composure. I need to be in my happy place right now!

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That’s right! Channel your inner Audrey Hepburn. GOOD!

8:45AM:

Almost there! OMG! How on earth am I supposed to get out of this subway?

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

Aristotle said, humans are rational beings but this a**hole is blocking the whole doorway. how on earth is that rational? MOVE MOVE MOVE!

Why am I reading this book on philosophy? Want legit advice? I’ll give you great advice. DO NOT STAND IN DOORWAYS ON SUBWAYS! It is a major nuisance and someone may just push you one of these days!

Also, another great advice, if you are dating someone and they put in a lot of effort into you then the least you can do is to put a little effort and at least make a card for them on Christmas/ Valentine’s Day and don’t give them that cheap crap about it being too commercial. You are just being freaking lazy. THAT IS ALL!

*reaches work*

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His name was Ben, or at least he looked like a ‘Ben’ and hence I just convinced myself that his name must be Ben.

I don’t know what his real name was. I never asked and he never told.

It was like playing a never ending game of dumb charades, a game at which I, just for the record, suck.

Maybe it’s my inability to keep my mouth shut or my crazy need to vocalize my emotions that led to that night…

For months…

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ah sh*t… now I am bored… no more blog post for tonight. This is a story for another time.

ooooh and I finally bought a copy of The Time Keeper by Mitch Albom! YAY!

Also reading The Elegance of The Hedgehog by Muriel Barbery. Will review it… well maybe! I THINK!

What are you guys reading?  I need to populate my booklist for 2013! Get suggestin’ lovely people!

Oh and by the way anyone in the TO area wants to do a book swap? I have a copy of Cloud Atlas that I absolutely want to get rid of! You read that right! Damned book! I am not selling it very well now am I?

Funny that there is also a book called The Cloud Atlas by a certain Mr. Liam. They should just not allow authors to publish books with the same names. Saw such a beautiful copy of Little Women today and totally want it! On my list of books to buy for next month!

Ok now I am just rambling! Off to bed I go! Night all!

New Years and Resolutions

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‘…and we are at it again…

Once again she is playing the blame game. Once it was me, now it’s her and eventually it will be someone else.

I don’t get her. She is always screaming but this year my mantra is not to engage her.’

New Years Resolutions:

1. A blog post a week

2. Not to engage people and their retarded bullshit

3. Be happy

What are yours?

Here’s my new beginning…

Instagram does wonders

Lies

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Lies.

Hello

They never do get you anywhere, now do they? We all lie from time to time. Don’t even bother denying it. You know you have. Heck, I know I have.

None of us are perfect but there is a line that shouldn’t be crossed, people who shouldn’t be hurt and things that shouldn’t be said or done.

When you claim to love someone, why lie?

You are sitting in a cafe, with your head in your hands, the cold wind sends chills up and down your spine. You shiver but the storm that is raging inside you renders you motionless, so much so that you do not even want to move to a warmer spot.

You sit and you wonder. Why are they lying to you? Is it necessary?

You start to question yourself. Do I intimidate him? Why does he feel the need to lie to me? All I ever did was to love him. Is that such a bad thing? You sit and wonder and that’s precisely what you have been doing for the past few months.

Every time you muster up the courage to call him out on his lies, something gets in the way. Maybe it’s your need to be loved or maybe you are just plain stupid, you can’t decide which.

All you know is that you love him and that you are afraid. So very afraid.

Afraid to lose him. Afraid that no one will care. Afraid that everything will cease to make sense.

Afraid. Yes, that’s what you are. Why though?

A couple hundred unpublished posts later…

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Everything takes time… We parted with those words… pfffftttt I don’t I can’t even allow myself to feel emotional anymore. It’s as if someone took it all away from me. I tried to put myself in your shoes and see how you will feel about the situation but I can’t; or maybe I just don’t want to anymore.

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As you grow up, you come to realize that sometimes you can’t stop people from leaving. All you can really do is to sit and watch and see if it goes anywhere.

Anyways, le blog is almost a year old, well slightly over a year old and I just wanted to drop by and say hi and promise to update more often and all that jazz. You see, there is this content that I want to post but I don’t know what to say about it. Should I tell stories? Should I just tell you about my day? Or what should I do really? TELL ME!

Somethings

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Lea was quiet at first, she didn’t want to say anything.

Couple of times, she parted her lips but no sound came out. As he sat himself down across the table from her, all she wanted was to shake him up and tell him not to lie anymore.

She didn’t want to hurt him. In fact, even after all of his lies she wanted to be there for him, but clearly this wasn’t working.

Her brain screamed RUN but her heart told her otherwise. She sighed heavily and just tried to regain her sanity.

Sipping on her cup of tea, she thought about all the things she liked about him.

‘It’s not too bad,’ she thought to herself, ‘we all have our little quirks. Maybe just maybe he will have a change of heart.’

Oh what will she do…

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So hey there lovely people! Haven’t blogged in forever! Have just been busy with school and work but here I am! Who is doing Nanowrimo this year? Let me know! I love you all! x

And the above is for Nanowrimo, I know this is not well edited and I am still working on things but I’ll get there, I hope!

Musings from another time – ‘Being 17, Ughness, Blahness and the likes of it’

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I am reading Bridget Jones’s Diary for the umpteenth time and I wanted to share this with you guys. Enjoy.

WAIT!

P.S: This was my first ever blog post… ok now enjoy!

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October 19, 2004

Exams are over… woohoo… gonna drop one subject… can’t stand it anymore… hmmm I don’t know what I want to be… sometimes I think I really wanna be a doctor but at other times I think I am going to be an engineer or join mass communications.

haha to be honest, I don’t know what is going to become of me. I am still in shock that I managed to get an A level pass for my maths! I was ready to fail.

Today Mr. S came up to me and scared me by saying ‘ how much do you think you got for maths?’ I was like, ‘well you should know since you marked it!’ then he said I passed. At that moment I wanted to get up and start dancing but then he asked me how I did for other subjects and my inflated ego was immediately deflated. I told him even though the grades this year were super shitty.

S texted me saying he wants to get to know me better.. hmm then N told me to just reply that how can he get to know me when he didn’t even dare approach me when he saw me in school… hmm I hope it wasn’t too harsh because it’s not very nice to hurt others.

Well J was online today. G too. I asked G if I should wish him, she said go ahead. I did and he didn’t even say thanks. oh sob sob sob. Never mind, it is ok. I feel bad but it is ok. I guess he has his own good reasons but I just want to be friends man! hmmm never mind. Ok this is getting so crappy. gtg

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Horrors! I had to edit the post massively to make it readable and I used to say things like ‘gtg’ a lot! It’s a miracle that I managed to get an A for my A levels English! (show off!)

And I am neither a doctor nor an engineer. I am a writer/techie (or however you spell that!)

 

A Fleeting Moment

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In that fleeting moment, she wished the ground beneath her feet would open up and swallow her whole. She felt that if she wished hard enough, she could somehow will the ground to open up.

But of course it didn’t. It never does. Well, not when you really need it to at least.

She had a tendency to blabber, a tendency that never quite left her. A tendency she wished she didn’t have.

‘I will just say this and shut up’ was by far the most common thought she ever had.

‘You are a lady, be eloquent but say as little as possible’ she was told. However, it was something she never could do. To her, that did not even make sense.

‘Well, some day’ she told herself, ‘some day.’

It was just a fleeting moment after all.

Familiarity

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At the start, there was a conversation…

A conversation you now wish you could recall, but all you can recall, is his smile.

There was something about that smile that was unbearably attractive. He was not a handsome man by any standards, but it was that smile, you tell yourself.

‘What was it about him that was attractive?’, you often ask yourself, but seem to find no answer.

You think you are going insane. It makes no sense after all.

Your friends tell you, it’s not you, it’s him. But that’s what friends do, they say things to make you feel better. ‘No’, you tell yourself, it was definitely him.

You pen down yet another entry in your diary. Cross out his name a couple of times and tell yourself, ‘it will be ok.’

In the morning there will be assignments to hand in, work to take care of and friends to talk to. You will forget about it soon enough but not tonight.

Tonight, for one last time, you will allow yourself to think about him and tell yourself it’s ok.

It is not like you did not know that it will come to this. You did. Along the way there were many red flags but the sense of familiarity made them seem like just a bunch of colors.

Familiarity is a strange thing, is it not?

Must Have Hair Product – Not Sponsored and Sh*t

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I am not much of a beauty blogger. Hell! I don’t even know the next thing about beauty. Never used make up, never had manicures and… well you get the picture but OH MY GOD! I just found a product that I HAVE to share with you guys.

I have a serious fetish for top knots and Bored With Your Hair has just the product that I have been looking for!

I am sure those of you who have massive hair, and are serial hair scrunchie breakers, can really use this product. Well I am assuming that all of you love top knots. I mean, who doesn’t! FINE! I am exaggerating but this is so awesome!

Oh and Michelle Phan used it in one of her videos and her hair looked OH SO AWESOME! and she has excellent taste when it comes to fashion/beauty products!

Doesn’t the model on the packaging look a little like Sarah Jessica Parker? Hmmmm…

Oh and here is the man behind the product! Theodore Leaf! TA DA!

You can check out his videos on YouTube. He is, in one word, FABULOUS! I had a ball watching his videos!

Oh and while I am at it, I am giving away 1 free* copy of Jeff Goins’ book titled Wrecked. Just let me know the name of your favorite blog and why it is your favorite? 

Love you guys!

*Terms and conditions apply! I haven’t quite figured them out myself but it just makes it sound oh so official right? WHEEE!